by Mama Blue » Mon May 15, 2023 7:54 pm
Now that I've completely derailed the subject you can see why Straw dubbed me "Blue The Buzzkiller."
Pretty much every thread I post in or start dies almost immediately. It's like no one wants to interact with me.
Why? Am I stupid? An asshole? A complete cunt? Do you just dislike me bc I bad named your old friend? Bc I brought up old memories? Bc I still talk about Noel? Yesterday was mother's day and I didn't say shit. Bc I'm fat and you think I'm a pig when I'm actually a 350 lb anorexic? Don't believe me? I can show you where I was diagnosed with low prealbumin, low phosphorous etc marking malnutrition contributing to brittle bones and bone loss. Or is it bc I posted my fundraiser, once. I posted once on fb too. I did not ask anyone other than that. I did not post it multiple times.
I try to contribute to the board. I'm sorry that I have become Blue The Threadkiller. I'm sorry that the content that I try to add to the board is considered stupid, boring or useless by the majority.
I'm sorry for being me.
Last week I had my 23th bout of Hypoxic, Hypercapnic, Chronic Respiratory Failure. I was intubated and had a feeding tube in for most of last week. The first time they extubated me I almost died and I remember the terror and complete loss of control for those few minutes when i could not breathe and i was tied to the bed and my trachea collapsed, b4 they put me back into a medically induced coma. It was one of the top 2 scary moments of my life.
Today I'm battling my 3rd bladder infection 3 weeks in a row, and I've been passing lots of bloodclots in my urine for 2 weeks.
And my very first diabetic foot infection.
They are scared of sepsis, amputation.
Now that I've completely derailed the subject you can see why Straw dubbed me "Blue The Buzzkiller."
Pretty much every thread I post in or start dies almost immediately. It's like no one wants to interact with me.
Why? Am I stupid? An asshole? A complete cunt? Do you just dislike me bc I bad named your old friend? Bc I brought up old memories? Bc I still talk about Noel? Yesterday was mother's day and I didn't say shit. Bc I'm fat and you think I'm a pig when I'm actually a 350 lb anorexic? Don't believe me? I can show you where I was diagnosed with low prealbumin, low phosphorous etc marking malnutrition contributing to brittle bones and bone loss. Or is it bc I posted my fundraiser, once. I posted once on fb too. I did not ask anyone other than that. I did not post it multiple times.
I try to contribute to the board. I'm sorry that I have become Blue The Threadkiller. I'm sorry that the content that I try to add to the board is considered stupid, boring or useless by the majority.
I'm sorry for being me.
Last week I had my 23th bout of Hypoxic, Hypercapnic, Chronic Respiratory Failure. I was intubated and had a feeding tube in for most of last week. The first time they extubated me I almost died and I remember the terror and complete loss of control for those few minutes when i could not breathe and i was tied to the bed and my trachea collapsed, b4 they put me back into a medically induced coma. It was one of the top 2 scary moments of my life.
Today I'm battling my 3rd bladder infection 3 weeks in a row, and I've been passing lots of bloodclots in my urine for 2 weeks.
And my very first diabetic foot infection.
They are scared of sepsis, amputation.