by Tdarcos » Mon Sep 05, 2016 12:22 pm
The problem is that the eye center wants a clearance from my cardiologist. My statement was that I figured that they want to make sure whatever anestesia they use does not cause me to drop dead of a heart attack, I was told that was exactly the reason, e.g. The Bridgetender's canned response.
I have noticed my vision is getting better although very slowly and it was the eye doctors who said that if it wasn't that I only have one eye we'd wait a few weeks since I could manage with one eye having blurry vision when the other is normal. I have not been able to use my computers except for minor tasks. I can't write and until extremely recently was completely unable to read. (I have discovered that if I simply touch-type I'm making fewer errors typing things in than when I look at the keyboard; having been doing typing for more than 20 years, my fingers know where the keys are better than my eyes do, and I can type at about 40-50 WPM without even looking at the keyboard. Maybe 5 or 10 years ago I discovered I'd been touch typing, probably for years, and didn't even realize it.)
One thing the last month has done for me, I've more-or-less finished two books, one I had been thinking about for a long time and the other was brand new, and I plotted both in my head and transcribed them by using my video cameras as Dictaphones, then as the cartridges got full, dumping them to my computer and saving the files. I have about 180 GB of video files - which will be less if I strip them as I only need to audio - which probably represent dozens of hours of me either telling the story or actually speaking dialog and scenes.
I suspect that if I had a couple of months the blur would eventually go away, but as it is I can't manage like this. I can't go out when it's dark, I can't read my prescriptions to know which ones I take when - I have them segregated into the ones I take once daily and the once I take twice a day. I can't cook much because I can't read the package to know how long to cook. The improvement means I have some limited functionality like being able to read the electronic temperature control on the gas oven, and to some degree to read the controls on the microwave oven.
It's like bare survival and I want more than that. I've decided that I want to change my life. Ironically my blindness has shown me the way I am traveling and it has opened my eyes to allow me to see that I do not like it. This blur has sharpened my focus and expanded my vision to see that I do not want to continue like this or like I have been. Now, all I have to wonder is if once I get my vision back, will I retain the resolve to want to change. I hope so, but only time will tell.
I go back to the cardiologist on Sep 8.
The problem is that the eye center wants a clearance from my cardiologist. My statement was that I figured that they want to make sure whatever anestesia they use does not cause me to drop dead of a heart attack, I was told that was exactly the reason, e.g. The Bridgetender's canned response.
I have noticed my vision is getting better although very slowly and it was the eye doctors who said that if it wasn't that I only have one eye we'd wait a few weeks since I could manage with one eye having blurry vision when the other is normal. I have not been able to use my computers except for minor tasks. I can't write and until extremely recently was completely unable to read. (I have discovered that if I simply touch-type I'm making fewer errors typing things in than when I look at the keyboard; having been doing typing for more than 20 years, my fingers know where the keys are better than my eyes do, and I can type at about 40-50 WPM without even looking at the keyboard. Maybe 5 or 10 years ago I discovered I'd been touch typing, probably for years, and didn't even realize it.)
One thing the last month has done for me, I've more-or-less finished two books, one I had been thinking about for a long time and the other was brand new, and I plotted both in my head and transcribed them by using my video cameras as Dictaphones, then as the cartridges got full, dumping them to my computer and saving the files. I have about 180 GB of video files - which will be less if I strip them as I only need to audio - which probably represent dozens of hours of me either telling the story or actually speaking dialog and scenes.
I suspect that if I had a couple of months the blur would eventually go away, but as it is I can't manage like this. I can't go out when it's dark, I can't read my prescriptions to know which ones I take when - I have them segregated into the ones I take once daily and the once I take twice a day. I can't cook much because I can't read the package to know how long to cook. The improvement means I have some limited functionality like being able to read the electronic temperature control on the gas oven, and to some degree to read the controls on the microwave oven.
It's like bare survival and I want more than that. I've decided that I want to change my life. Ironically my blindness has shown me the way I am traveling and it has opened my eyes to allow me to see that I do not like it. This blur has sharpened my focus and expanded my vision to see that I do not want to continue like this or like I have been. Now, all I have to wonder is if once I get my vision back, will I retain the resolve to want to change. I hope so, but only time will tell.
I go back to the cardiologist on Sep 8.