Good old heroin

hygraed · Post by **hygraed** » Sat Feb 16, 2008 8:12 pm

At about 1:30 this morning, I got an instant message from my friend Jessica.

"like six cops and an ambulance are at isaacs dorm"

I've known Isaac for a number of years, and in that time I've seen him through more than his fair share of drug problems. Of course I panicked and hammered out a semi-coherent request for more information, to which Jessica replied that she didn't know for sure what was happening and that some people were saying that he was conscious while others were saying he was unconscious.

I called my friend Sean and asked him if he had heard anything, and he told me that Isaac's girlfriend, who was with Isaac at the time, had told Sean that Isaac had died of a heroin overdose. I don't know if it was denial or what but I refused to believe her; I told myself that she was obviously too fucked up to be able to give a reliable report. Add that to the fact that Jessica lives in the same building as Isaac and she was getting reports from people that Isaac was alive. At this point I didn't know what to believe.

I stayed up until about 4 AM trying to get a conclusive report, but to no avail. I was woken today at about 2 PM by a phone call from Isaac's and my former youth director, Kate, who told me that she had spoken with Isaac's family and that Isaac had been pronounced dead at the scene.

Isaac was one of my best friends, yet for some reason I never had the slightest inkling that things had gotten this bad. A fair amount of my friends dick around with soft drugs (weed, shrooms, etc.) but none of them have ever gotten in any trouble that resulted in anything more than a court date. I don't know whether he was hiding it really well or I was just fucking oblivious but I'm still kicking myself for not paying better attention. He was always so bright and upbeat; there was nothing to indicate that he was so deeply into this.

I'm keeping closer tabs on my friends from now on. Fuck this shit.

Worm · Post by **Worm** » Sat Feb 16, 2008 8:55 pm

It'd probably be endlessly more frustrating if you knew about it. Some of my best friends all ended up in jail or with kids (which in my eyes is a death of sorts), trying to convince them that they are motherfucking idiots really strains the friendship.

Jack Straw · Post by **Jack Straw** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 8:14 am

Worm wrote:Some of my best friends all ended up in jail or with kids (which in my eyes is a death of sorts)

??? that doesn't mean much coming from a loser who still lives in his mom's basement.

sorry for your loss, hygraed.

Worm · Post by **Worm** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 9:17 am

Jack Straw wrote:??? that doesn't mean much coming from a loser who still lives in his mom's basement.

I don't! Though it doesn't take any life experience(read: drugs, crazy girl friends, and broken condoms) whatsoever to understand that being unaware of some dire circumstances is better than trying, in futility, to rectify those circumstances.

Also nice to see your golden heart shine through in that you gave you a burn on me priority over your condolences.

It's very hard to save people, no one should blame themselves for a deficiency in the practice of salvation, especially since the results are entirely chance.