by ICJ » Sat Dec 22, 2012 11:56 am
2012 was the worst year of my life in many respects. Mostly because I spent the entire year thinking that the universe owed me something. That other people were responsible for MY happiness. That I just deserved ... whatever, because I am a "nice guy."
Not any more!
The number one change I am going to make in 2013 is to take control of my life, in so much as I will become a content person based on decisions I make and things I do.
Specifically, here is how my 2013 will be different:
Writing More
My plan was to have a little novella to go along with Cyberganked that I could sell on the Amazon store. I made an opening that I really like. Then it sputtered. And why? Well, I was going back into my old habits of hate-reading. (More on that in a second.) There is no reason why I can't bust out a novella by the end of January 2013. That is my first goal.
Program More
Along the same lines, it took me five months to get a work in progress ready for Cyberganked, the game. I'm happier with the progress on this, but at the same time there's a lot of empty nights I waste.
Now, I need Milker's haunted house for one more go-around... but I could otherwise have Cyberganked finished in 2013. This would really make me happy, as other people are no doubt making Bard's Tale-style games and I'd like to hit the market first.
More Swimming
Man, I am the master at making excuses why I can't go to the gym. The backstories we used to make when playing "Clue" don't compare to my ability to, on the fly, tell you why I couldn't possibly go swimming. No more of this! I think the most pathetic thing in the world is a guy who lives by himself, is unhappy with his health and STILL doesn't work out. Plus, swimming is hardly exercise because I don't feel like ending it all.
Girls Are Gonna Be Fun Again
Whether my girlfriend of the last two years and I get back together as we might-but-might-not-who-knows or not, I am going to RELAX and enjoy the company of girls. I am going to get to know them, not be nervous and just be myself.
I'm not "nervous" really, but I come off that way for the first few dates. Oh, and girls on dating sites are all crazy. But aside from those things, I am going to enjoy dating like I used to.
No More Hate-Reading. Except...
I figured out why I hate-read sites. It's because I signed up for them as "Ice Cream Jonsey" and people think ICJ is a "nice guy." So if I truly feel I have to hate-read, I am going to get a new IP address, make up a new on-line identity and then troll the shit out of the communities I despise.
No More Mister Fists In Eyes Waaargh
Oh have I mastered the joke where I am the butt!! My poor shitty life! No more. People are tired of hearing about what a fuck-up I think I am. Christ, I'm one step away from management at my job, I can't play the fuck-up card.
I still believe that real comedy comes from looking inwards, but I am going to be more upbeat. :)
No More Spending All My Money On Arcade Projects
Speaks for itself.
I'm Getting My Teeth Whitened
I don't care what chemicals they are going to throw at them, these things are going to be pristine by the end of February 2013.
So I don't know if I'd call these resolutions, but I am going to remember this thread in 2013 and have a better year, a better experience on earth, and give you all a better ME.
EDIT: I have edited the title. Let's all have a happier 2013!
2012 was the worst year of my life in many respects. Mostly because I spent the entire year thinking that the universe owed me something. That other people were responsible for MY happiness. That I just deserved ... whatever, because I am a "nice guy."
Not any more!
The number one change I am going to make in 2013 is to take control of my life, in so much as I will become a content person based on decisions I make and things I do.
Specifically, here is how my 2013 will be different:
[b]Writing More[/b]
My plan was to have a little novella to go along with Cyberganked that I could sell on the Amazon store. I made an opening that I really like. Then it sputtered. And why? Well, I was going back into my old habits of hate-reading. (More on that in a second.) There is no reason why I can't bust out a novella by the end of January 2013. That is my first goal.
[b]Program More[/b]
Along the same lines, it took me five months to get a work in progress ready for Cyberganked, the game. I'm happier with the progress on this, but at the same time there's a lot of empty nights I waste.
Now, I need Milker's haunted house for one more go-around... but I could otherwise have Cyberganked finished in 2013. This would really make me happy, as other people are no doubt making Bard's Tale-style games and I'd like to hit the market first.
[b]More Swimming[/b]
Man, I am the master at making excuses why I can't go to the gym. The backstories we used to make when playing "Clue" don't compare to my ability to, on the fly, tell you why I couldn't possibly go swimming. No more of this! I think the most pathetic thing in the world is a guy who lives by himself, is unhappy with his health and STILL doesn't work out. Plus, swimming is hardly exercise because I don't feel like ending it all.
[b]Girls Are Gonna Be Fun Again[/b]
Whether my girlfriend of the last two years and I get back together as we might-but-might-not-who-knows or not, I am going to RELAX and enjoy the company of girls. I am going to get to know them, not be nervous and just be myself.
I'm not "nervous" really, but I come off that way for the first few dates. Oh, and girls on dating sites are all crazy. But aside from those things, I am going to enjoy dating like I used to.
[b]No More Hate-Reading. Except...[/b]
I figured out why I hate-read sites. It's because I signed up for them as "Ice Cream Jonsey" and people think ICJ is a "nice guy." So if I truly feel I have to hate-read, I am going to get a new IP address, make up a new on-line identity and then [i]troll the shit[/i] out of the communities I despise.
[b]No More Mister Fists In Eyes Waaargh[/b]
Oh have I mastered the joke where I am the butt!! My poor shitty life! No more. People are tired of hearing about what a fuck-up I think I am. Christ, I'm one step away from management at my job, I can't play the fuck-up card.
I still believe that real comedy comes from looking inwards, but I am going to be more upbeat. :)
[b]No More Spending All My Money On Arcade Projects[/b]
Speaks for itself.
[b]I'm Getting My Teeth Whitened[/b]
I don't care what chemicals they are going to throw at them, these things are going to be pristine by the end of February 2013.
So I don't know if I'd call these resolutions, but I am going to remember this thread in 2013 and have a better year, a better experience on earth, and give you all a better ME.
[b]EDIT[/b]: I have edited the title. Let's all have a happier 2013!