Jolt Country Brings Out The Worst In Me(Still 100% MY Fault)

[Billy Mays]

I've been thinking about a number of my recent posts, and have been a little surprised by how aggressive some of them have become.

I am usually a pretty laid back individual in regular life, and online.

Usually I am concerned with presenting myself civilly, being respectful to others, and doing my best to contribute things that only create value for the greater community.

Here it is like a blood covered, rage filled, take no prisoner, all out bar fight without any concern for anybody's well being or your own....Which is still really fun, don't get me wrong, but unfortunately I believe I have been predominantly the culprit in creating this environment.

That being said, I fear that I have come across a little hard on some members, so I would like to say:

Tdarcos: Sorry about the things I said to you that were uncalled for, I did not mean them, mainly I just misinterpreted the general vibe of the board, but that does not excuse what I said, or my own guilt in saying it. I am sorry.

pinback: My bad. That is the best I can give you really, because I believe you are a dangerous sociopath, and probably deserved at least some of the abuse, but I still believe I took it way out of proportion. I also noticed you were already logged on when I logged on, and are probably taking some return shots at me. If this is the case, I am going to have to smash on you pretty hard, but then I will cool my jets for the most part in the future. Nah, on second thought, I am just going to let that slide as well, unless it is particularly vicious, then I will be forced to respond. My bad, pinback.

Flack: Sorry for taking a couple of shots at Hangar-22, it was all in good fun hopefully. I really am looking forward to playing it, I am just swamped with other games right now, and life in general. And sorry for also poking fun at your dream of becoming a famous author, that was also hopefully in good fun, I believe you are a talented writer and can do whatever you set your mind to. Sorry.

Aardvark: Sorry for shitting all over your barn sale post. Barn sales are important to you, and I should respect that. Also, I am pretty sure I insinuated at least once or twice that you are a drunk, if I didn't, well I meant to at the time. I am sorry either way.

ICJ: Sorry for giving you shit about not knowing who Richard Karn is. I personally didn't think my comment was that big of a deal, but you most certainly did, enough so that you voiced your disapproval with me, and I should have respected that. Also, sorry for spreading the rumor around the board that you gave me a $20 gift card to Sizzler, this never happened, I don't even know where a Sizzler is around me, I just like saying the word Sizzler, plus their food looks there pretty mediocre. Also, sorry for poking fun at the archaic software that keeps this forum going, it was all in good fun, and I really appreciate the time and money you sacrifice in order to create an environment that everyone can get together and have a good time in. Sorry if I spoiled any of that good time with my attitude.


Well, I think that about wraps that up, if I forgot about you, please be sure to mention it in the comments below, at which point I will reference it with the actual board to see if a transgression did occur, and I will come back and address it.

Also, I feel like relocating to the opposite side of the country in the next two weeks, so I probably won't be on for a long time, I will be leaving in less than a fortnight (first use of "fortnight" in my life that is actually applicable to real life events!!! SCORE!!!!). I will still pop on occasionally until then. No, I am not going to prison. No, I am not going on the lam. No, I am not about to put a pistol in my mouth. No, I am not dying of any disease that I know of. No, pinback did not chase me away like everyone says he did to everyone else, his insults are honestly very weak, I feel the least I could do is absolve him of any meritless rumors of my disappearance. No, I don't pay child support, so I am not ducking out on anybody. I just feel like a change of scenery. It was fun getting to know everyone here, I still want to remain on the Cyberganked mailing list as I still want to purchase a copy. I am hoping everyone will still be here when I return! It is kind of weird that I am having such an emotional response to this because not only am I an empty meat suit of a human being, but also because I just met you guys like 4 days ago...either way, you guys are the best!! Expect to hear from me sometimes next year, so please don't delete Billy Mays! See you soon!!!!

[pinback]

Also, I feel like relocating to the opposite side of the country in the next two weeks, so I probably won't be on for a long time

Wow, this is the first one that I not only ran off the BBS, but ran him out of his entire geographical area.

THE
STILL GOT IT
PINBACK

[Billy Mays]

Wow, this is the first one that I not only ran off the BBS, but ran him out of his entire geographical area.

No, you dumb shit, I am moving for my own benefit, just like you moving your dirty cock sucking mouth onto the barrel of a .38 special before painting your cat castle in a crimson slurry of brain matter and dried semen would be a benefit to not only this forum, but also to the advancement of modern art.

I already said I wasn't leaving for good, I don't know why I even brought that up. But in all fairness, you probably don't know why your father would introduce you to his coworkers as his "wife's son" before the pride would evaporate from his face.


THE
NO MORE APOLOGIES
BILLY MAYS

[Tdarcos]

I am usually a pretty laid back individual in regular life, and online.

I tried to post a response earlier but my computer froze, requiring a reboot. Then all of my stored information vanished, all the saved passwords, everything. Fortunately Firefox has an online sync and I was able to recover everything. But that means because I just checked for messages since I last logged on, I lost the pointer so I have to manually check for new responses.

So anyway, I'm going to try and re-answer your questions after I was so rudely interrupted.

Usually I am concerned with presenting myself civilly, being respectful to others, and doing my best to contribute things that only create value for the greater community.

Here it is like a blood covered, rage filled, take no prisoner, all out bar fight without any concern for anybody's well being or your own....Which is still really fun, don't get me wrong, but unfortunately I believe I have been predominantly the culprit in creating this environment.

That is a common "problem" in on-line communities, where the sweetest and nicest people in real life can turn into bastards once they get a taste of anonymity or pseudo-anonymity, where they can pretty much say anything about anybody and get away with it, often because - and I've done it too - we forget there is a real human being, with feelings, on the other side of the glass.

But remember this, everyone that is here has known each other for years. Which means we're seasoned veterans of the Internet and we're supposed to have thick skins. If you can't take being hit with blast-furnace level hot insults, you have no business being on the Internet.

That being said, I fear that I have come across a little hard on some members, so I would like to say:

Tdarcos: Sorry about the things I said to you that were uncalled for, I did not mean them, mainly I just misinterpreted the general vibe of the board, but that does not excuse what I said, or my own guilt in saying it. I am sorry.

Hey, you stupid bastard, shut up and soldier on! You haven't said a goddam thing to me that was even close to rude or even mildly insulting. I liked every cocksucking you've said and I can't think of a motherfucking thing you said that was nasty or unkind. Keep it up, fucker. We need sons-a-bitches like you to keep the place fresh and meaningful.

(By the way, I'm being silly here by insulting you at the same time I'm praising you. Just in case you don't get the point.)

pinback: My bad. That is the best I can give you really, because I believe you are a dangerous sociopath,

(Big round of applause) Nailed it!

and probably deserved at least some of the abuse,

No, he deserves much more.

but I still believe I took it way out of proportion.

No, if anything you were woefully understating his level of scum and villainy.

I also noticed you were already logged on when I logged on, and are probably taking some return shots at me. If this is the case, I am going to have to smash on you pretty hard, but then I will cool my jets for the most part in the future. Nah, on second thought, I am just going to let that slide as well, unless it is particularly vicious, then I will be forced to respond. My bad, pinback.

Stop apologizing to him, you'll make him think he is a reasonable human being instead of a cold sociopath who has been fully floccinaucinihilipilificated.

I don't even know where a Sizzler is around me, I just like saying the word Sizzler

I've heard French people who don't know English love saying the word "syphilis," it just sounds cool to them even if they don't know what it means.

I am hoping everyone will still be here when I return!

I think that's a certainty, and if you disappear for a while, I am sure I will miss you for at least 30 seconds.

[Knuckles the CLown]

I actually agree with lardnuts for once. My brother and Ben are probably two of the biggest pussies Ive ever met IRL. Those guys would eat soup somebody shit in and leave a tip before sticking up for themselves.

On-line though WATCH OUT!

Im generally a nice guy in person but I relish conflict with people I deem lesser or supposed authority. Here I just love conflict in general.

We have 45 bases for these chodes to talk about pinball, text gaming, programming, 40 year old CPU languages and the other demented sub human hobbies they do. Those are nice nice.

I like to the think of the top 4 or 5 forums as a reality check for when Robb gets cocky.

Ben is simply boring now since he quit drinking so he is useless. The adding a kid thing is worth keeping an eye out for though. Because as we all now, adding kids solves everything.

[pinback]

Ben is simply boring now since he quit drinking

I did what now?

How tough-guy aggressive do you need to be until you can feel worthy, that's the question we all have for Knuckles.

[Knuckles the CLown]

IT's not about feeling worthy, it's about not letting cretins take advantage of you.

And I'm straight with people. You don't run anyone off the board anymore, no more Don Rodgers(Rogers?) no funny. I will feel worthy when you nut up and start living again.

[pinback]

This is "younger brother syndrome". It is difficult growing up with a smarter, probably more loved sibling, so they have to act hard all the time to fill that emotional void. My uncle Larry had to go through the same thing. Unfortunately, he dealt with it by dying of a heroin overdose.

I hope it doesn't get that far with you, my man. We're here to help. LET US IN.

[Billy Mays]

IT's not about feeling worthy, it's about not letting cretins take advantage of you...when you nut up and start living again.

I have to agree with Knuckles on this one, even though I imagine that I will receive the brunt of your abuse once your doctor finally takes you off of estrogen treatment.

[Billy Mays]

You don't run anyone off the board anymore,

Can anybody point to any examples of pinback chasing somebody off of the board? I beginning to get the impression that people just left of their of volition to pursue other things, and it is just one big inside joke that pinback "ran off another one"?

I am also getting the impression that I really misinterpreted the vibe here?

[Billy Mays]

You guys think it would be better off if I left for good?

[Knuckles the CLown]

I don't get you. Leave

[Billy Mays]

I don't get you. Leave

Ok.

[pinback]

BEST OF.

[Billy Mays]

While I respect your honesty, I have decided that the best course of action for me would be to remain on the forum in an attempt to redeem myself, and make amends for my previous statements.

[pinback]

I would like to know what initially prompted you to begin characterizing me as a sociopath, a degenerate, all those other nasty names you called me. As far as I recall, I tried to engage in some fun banter about Tappy Tibbons, and since then you took it upon yourself to criticize one of my other websites, and then launch into what I consider an unprecedented string of unprovoked personal attacks.

I want to know what I could have done to prevent that.

[Billy Mays]

I would like to know what initially prompted you to begin characterizing me as a sociopath, a degenerate, all those other nasty names you called me. As far as I recall, I tried to engage in some fun banter about Tappy Tibbons, and since then you took it upon yourself to criticize one of my other websites, and then launch into what I consider an unprecedented string of unprovoked personal attacks.

I want to know what I could have done to prevent that.

I started off with the intention of just making playful jabs in the spirit of the forum.

Then, life started shitting on me pretty hard, I saw you make light of the murder/suicide, those playful jabs then turned into a torrent of rage, and I just channeled my anger at you.

Sorry.

[pinback]

Well, that's fine. Hope things turn around for you.

[Knuckles the CLown]

I would like to know what initially prompted you to begin characterizing me as a sociopath, a degenerate, all those other nasty names you called me. As far as I recall, I tried to engage in some fun banter about Tappy Tibbons, and since then you took it upon yourself to criticize one of my other websites, and then launch into what I consider an unprecedented string of unprovoked personal attacks.

I want to know what I could have done to prevent that.

I started off with the intention of just making playful jabs in the spirit of the forum.

Then, life started shitting on me pretty hard, I saw you make light of the murder/suicide, those playful jabs then turned into a torrent of rage, and I just channeled my anger at you.

Sorry.

We already had someone blow their brains out, find a new shtick

[Flack]

I actually agree with lardnuts for once. My brother and Ben are probably two of the biggest pussies Ive ever met IRL. Those guys would eat soup somebody shit in and leave a tip before sticking up for themselves.

Note to self: don't eat the soup at Robb's wedding.